SHOW AND TELL
Even after waking early this morning and settling down to meditate I still feel at odd with myself.
Yes I could feel the crystals doing there thing pulling, pushing, clearing and yes I felt momentarily connected but now still un easy.
What was causing this?
Our routine had been altered this weekend, maybe that had contributed?
Where normally me and Chris would re group, connect spend time with the moo (Maya) and our dogs, walking and talking and usually eating.
But Chris had chaos at work leading to him to be on the phone most of Saturday then actually having to go into the office early Sunday and spending all of the day there.
I went about my weekend the same, spent time with my sister and marmie we even visited Bollington market for all of 4 minutes, thanks to heavy snow, hail, wind and ice all at once. Still managed to come home laden with cakes though.
I made toad in the hole, my toad being less toady and more veggie and then Chris returned looking exhausted and found it really hard to talk to us as he’d been talking all day.
The disconnection continued all week, pressures from work keeping Chris away or just not generally here in spirit.
I even caught myself deeply inhaling his previously slept in t shirt whilst making our bed one morning :0
Had no idea I was going to do that, until I found my nose embedded deep. All I can put that kind of behaviour down to was missing my man and obviously needing to get a fix of him.
Relationships are odd don’t you think?
We connect on so many different levels
The touch of a hand,
Kiss on the lips,
Tears and even texts!!
And not one greater than the other, all necessary to forge togetherness with a deep rooted sense of belonging.
These all create beautiful usually unnoticed subtle connections between us, fine gossamer lines of energy crossing from one to another, a transference of love and mutual respect.
Trying to stay clear of the thick controlling kind, which control and manipulate. We have all had relationships like that where rigid connections and demanding tendrils run between you, both consenting and submitting, whilst usually sub conscious.
So my single objective all week, which was and still continues to be really tough and that’s to let go of all my frustrations, jealousy even for something far bigger and more demanding which has taken Chris from us and our family routine. All stuff that I cannot control and shouldn’t even try to for that would be a relentless and hideous battle.
I have religiously parked my behind on my kitchen floor, grabbed crystal and meditated every morning.
For how I see it is that if I can de funk my self, clear away as much negativity then I am able to give to myself those connections, feel safe and loved by just sitting letting go and falling back down into my authentic self, not the upset precocious one that keeps rearing her ugly head.
Hopefully then when my pot is as empty as possible I am able to listen and hold Chris when he wants support rather than my demanding needs taking selfish centre stage.
Balance is the key and of course crystals, if we take care of our own needs and wants first and foremost then we see things from a totally different perspective. Try to look at things from the ground floor with your partner directly opposite you, not above and not below. Then try desperately to stay away from running to the hills or screeching from the roof tops.
Right here is where the magic happens!!!
I worked with Smokey Quartz to get rid off negativity and Hematite to keep me feeling grounded.
Then drank copious amounts of hot and cold Crystal Elixirs all week,
Below is a short video on how to make these wonderful drinks.
And one of my past favourite meditations to help us re connect and ground fully.
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